not easy

ding dong

i am here writting my blog again

many many things i want to said out

but i just dunno how to said it out

sometimes really feel down cause of my dad

even feel depressed

i just wish i can control him not to talk or stop him to talk

really feel enough and enough

it is make me damn crazy!!

i dunno how to avoid i dunno i really dunno !！

no matter how i just can keep it by myself

cause i am no one besides me 

tomorrow is a day st mary graduation day

end my form 6 life after tomorrow

so fast had been one and half year i study at st mary school

st mary built up many many memories to me

sad happy crazy laugh cry scare 

here i said ,i really lose to st mary from many side

i even tried all the bad feeling 

anyway ,here i need to thx st mary also 

through all these things happened let me grow more mature and mature

especially st mary teacher

my class teacher,she did teach us alot of things

thanks you teacher :D

here i need to mention is oppa gangnam gang ^^

a group of my best buddies that i know in my form 6 life 

they are quite funny and playful

together with they only laugh laugh laugh and also laugh ^^

thx u guys let me have a crazy and happily time during my form 6 time

if nt u guys i think it will be very boring gua~   maybe lah   HAHA

so fast we gonna seperate and go for our own future

no matter where we go,our memory still here :) friendship still here :)

GOOD LUCK for your guys 

hope to see you all in uni :D

p/s: i believe that have friendship forever 

let it go

my dear...

i understand about your situation

i understand :)

YOU ! please remember that i am always stand here support you :)

no matter when where ,i still be here

even thought after we graduation or we far apart from each other

our friendship is forever :D

slowly to let all the sadness go away

slowly find back your happy

i believe that you will find a mr right

your mr right is standing somewhere to waiting you

time will prove to you ^^

remember you are not alone 

if  a day u want to said out all things i willing sitting beside you and heard 

GAMBATEH 

p/s: nevermind is okay ^^ nothings is impossible 

你的爱 在那里？

犀利人妻电影版

幸福男，不难

幸福是该去冒险 

和久人在回一起 情切 熟悉

跟新人在一起 兴奋 快乐 充满着冒险的恐惧

真心 真爱 为了谁？

什么是爱的结局？

要求完美的爱情 有错吗？

爱情 是为了证明什么？

你又能够为了爱情证明什么？

拥有选择的爱情 会幸福吗？

你又能抉择你的答案吗？

爱情 = 哭 笑 伤 乐 痛 

就只有这些？

拥有快乐的爱情 就能放声大笑 

拥有痛苦的爱情 就崩溃大哭

想拥有属于自己真真的幸福 需要冒险

一个人 一辈子 就只一次幸福 难吗？

被人抛弃了 又该用什么态度去面对？

那就只有承受 承受一切改变不了的结局

曾还没世界末日 

给悲伤的你 孤独的你 胆怯的你 寂寞的你 劳累的你

再一次拥抱幸福的机会

幸福男 不难？

就看你用什么角度和态度去理解 :)

p/S: 爱不需理由 因没原因 没有完整的答案

comestic day

weeeeee

sartuday !!

saturday was rain whole day

but i love rainy,feel so comfortable

but make me feel so lazy too

hahaha... complicated

i went to classic hours a new west restaurant at sandakan to have a brunch with friends ^^

spend a relax afternoon with buddies ^^

after that i went to D BOX agian have a noon sing

hahaha !! but this time was realy fun coz 3 ppl have a VIP room

really big enough even can have a cat walk inside the room

how big??hahahaha

but spoiled i need back home early because i had tuition class at 5 o clock

but really had fun ^^

night time ~

this week i be a guai guai lui stay home only ^^

even friday night i also dint go out.. haha!

i was spend my time train my makeup at saturday night

i tried different style and way to makeup

luckily i still not tat stupid enough

hahaha:)
after few times,my eyes was pain enough
just feel my eyes was so tired..aiksss
so i stop and let my eyes have a rest

is this look ok  for me?? just aviod my cloth =p

next week i going help my fren 'sis makeup 

stress enough because i never help people makeup and go for big function

wish me luck ^^

here manchester united ^^

i received my clothe on saturday 

wear it today ^^

i super like it :D

thinking if i got a bf i sure use football clothe to be our couple clothe 

weeeeee ^^

it look special and NICE 

going to have my 2nd football clothes ...xixi ^^

trip love

just finished watched this movie

a cute and happiness movie :D

a trip can find true love <3 p="p">

can i?? hahaha

what a beautiful accident love 

LIKE IT :D

in real will this happen?? 

but i believe it will happen in real

is have miracle there :）

p/s: i feel my heartbeat again

miss but pass :)

12.45 midnight
i was think many things right now
STPM?
HOLIDAYS?
SINGAPORE?
UNIVERSITY?
WORK?
RELATIONSHIP?
MARRY?
FAMILY?
DIE?
future plan can i plan now?
can i predict what will happen in the future?
i cant...
who is my partner?
who willing take care of me?
who will stay beside me?
i dunno.....
can i find a good job?
can i have a job that i hope?
i dunno too....
will i have my own happy family?
i will have how many children?
i dunno too...

a things havent happen yet
we cant predict and expect what is going on
only the god will know
we just see what is infront of us
who is in front of us
what is we having now
appreciate what we having now
dont let yourself have regret


smile is always there just see when u want to do it

hello,keyang ^^

hello baby keyang :D

she officially 1 year old now ^^

dai goh lui lurrr 

but become more naughty jor..haha

last wednesday was her 1 year old birthday 

we lightly celebrate with her 

but can see through keyang was so happy :)

keyang bring many happiness to us and also my sis
:D

she is a cute little princes and clever girl

her hobby is watch cartoon movie 

she can sit there watch around 1 hour,even we go and disturb but she just ignore

what a cute little baby :）

her favourite cartoon is disney land mickey mouse ^^

she like mickey but not minnie

hahaha..funny rite?

so my sister bought her a big mickey mouse birthday cake 

when she saw her cake,she keep smile and happy

are you believe she just 1year old?

hahahaha!

bracelet

TIFFANY & CO

suddenly feel lik want to buy a bracelet to myself for my 20 years old present :D

saw few design that i very like it

but a real TIFFANY & CO really too expensive 

and i hard to buy it

but i saw some bracelet from fb 

it have very nice design although it is fake 

60% silver + 40% of the copper-nickel alloy + 3 outer plating layer 925

but cost also need RM 50 ++

planning to have it but recently i am brooke

just save money first then buy later

bracelet very meaningful for me

hard to decide which design i want

all i also like it

can i greedy to have all of it?

haha..i know it impossible

start saving money from now to have one for myself :D

P/S:bracelet contain a meaning :)

halloween

halloween day is coming soon :D

i never celebrate these day with anyone or go for any activity

everytime i also wish that i can have a halloween make up with friends

and have a great night with friends :D

but all my buddies was not here and no one can accompany me

so i think this year is just the same

pass it as normal 

halloween day is how syok how fun

u can dress up and make up a character that you like

can have a different feel to pass a great night

but too bad..i am at sandakan 

nevermind ,is okay ~~

early wish you guys

HAPPY HALLOWEEN DAY :D

CUTE PUMPKIN STAY HERE BE WITH YOU

p/s: a day that i like :)

what a painful day

:(:(:(:(

my stomach make me pain whole day and never stop

i just dunno use what way can cure my pain

it really very suffer me

just lik got a big stone inside my stomach 

now pain until my back bone also pain

haiizzz~

girl?

every month sure will suffer me 1 times

how come can so pain ahh??

i keep watch movie keep make myself busy or else go sleep to let my feel forget the pain

how suffer :(

can i skip 1 month don suffer?

omg!!!

i just scare the day i sit for stpm ,pain again 

that time i really cried :(

suffer it myself pain it myself

i can tell who?

no one can let me "za teh"

just be a stronger girl endure it by self 

nevermind ,it is okay ~~

p/s: pain make my day 

alright ^^

hello ~

i here again ^^

sunday i was stay at home and keep sleep only..

keke

although it was so boring and hot

but i feel so relax also :)

well~

i was curly my hair on friday 

oh yeah ^^ the result come out is ok

i like it much ^^

but i look more mature 

never mind ~~ my heart is still young then ok :D

HAHAHAHA!

 is that ok?? haha

nothing wait=give up

thx for a conversation
finally i can decide what i do now
what i want now
is sound like serious??
YeS! i am serious in it...


p/s:

You can hide the pain that you feel and make others believe you can move on but you can never deny the truth to yourself that the person who has failed and hurt you is still the person you’ll always choose to love. p/s: The face can speak a thousand emotions but it can easily mask what the heart truly feels. Don’t be fooled for the happiest face may be masking the most hurting heart. p/s: Sometimes we must be hurt in order to grow, fall in order to know, lose in order to gain. And sometimes we have to be broken so we can be whole again.

pass tense

today afternoon raining heavily again

think back the time when i at singapore

how amazing that i stand under a heavy rain cried for whole night

cried until rain stop i still standing there

nobody will know you are crying when you stand under raining

when i remember that momment ,my heart still will feel pain even heartache

now i realise that,even i forget about it but once i touch it ,still the same no matter how i escape it

being alone not a scary things but being hurt is the most scary things

i just wish i can forget all my memories 

just save those happy memories 

tired on somethings that i keep to escape until now

tired in somethings that i keep act until now

but life still go on

just keep telling myself it will be alright

smile to treat every single days

:D :)

give up

give up 

give up

give up 

give up

really tired to think about it already

just give up on it and stay at singapore 

i know i sure will emo on that time

but is okay bahhh

still got many chance that i can gather with my friends 

still got many times chinese new year :)

cheers soey ^^

thinking to go travel to cheers my emo

haha

planning but dunno it work or not

depends bah 

i think i can pass it even though i am staying at singapore alone and far away from my family and friends

stay stronger !!

well ~~ here the relax timing 

went to 4 point to had a hoaegaarden with my friends

plus live band 

what a enjoyable nights 

love the feel there 

hoagaarden ! my favourite <3 p="p">

stress ahhh

should back or don back leh?

all my buddies and big family is back sandakan celebrate chinese new year

and my brother mayb back also..

me?

the problem is i january just go to singapore 

then february back again?

air ticket sibeh expensive lehhh...==

hmmmmm...i should think it cleary and decide it as fast as possible

stay at singapore pass chinese new year is okay 

but i sure will emo 

cause really is 1st time i no stay at my home pass chinese new year

no ang pao :(

no lion dance:(

hmmmm.....think again think again....

miss?

missing someone right now

who? who? who?

my heart is calling your name

can i tell you that i miss you ?

i really wish that i can loudly tell you 

i think sometimes hide is a good way to protect myself

but it is enough tired 

waiting to end 2012 

i believe tat 2013 will be a brand new year for me to start everything new :D

move or don move?

i cant predict that

now i choose to don care don see don heard and DON KNOW

don want to know then no nid to think

i think i feel so comfortable with this way

"YOu" do take care yourself'

p/s: anythings happened just smile :） 

october

welcome october ^^

hello :D

time really pass so fast and i like it :)

2 more month i can leave sandakan soon 

1 more month i gonna sit for my STPM 

afraid? stress? 

i don think i have ..haha opssss 

when i chat with my sis just now , finally i know what to do

singapore life is i really wish to have last forever and don wish to come back malaysia

finally i get my mum permission that i not must in university to study 4 years

but my sis was no really agree with it

she told me that last time i force you to study form 6 is because i wish you can get in university and graduation as university student

she said i can study at singapore but i cant give up on STPM

i should try my best to get a better result

if at last i also cant get in that is never mind because i did try my best to hold on the chance

if i don have try straight give up ,she will feel very dissapointed on me

what my sister told me is truth

i never try never move but give up

i don want to stay at here because of many reason ,those reason really make me cant breathe out

so i decide to leave here 

but i know i cant too selfish only think of myself and avoid my family feeling

they are my family forever family

only family will last forever with me 

i will hold on my promise and work it :）

p/s: no matter where are you, i just wish to be with you.

下一站 幸福 ？

从看了“下一站幸福”这台湾剧

想念里面的剧情 

沉迷在台湾剧 因为里面的故事都是我时常幻想想拥有的

好笑吧？ 我自己清楚明白只能幻想 但我也愿意

或许我相信着

深爱着一个人 可以为对方牺牲一切包括离开

爱情就像玩大富翁 有机会和命运

机会可以让你开心或忧愁 命运可让你改变一切

而我也许只能抽机会 因为我的命运是零

我能到那一站？ 我的那一站是幸福的？

有些时候 我的脚步不想踏前一步

是因为我身后有着我的不舍得

我的梦里 我的心里 我的歌声里

都存在着你

如果你们是属于对方的 无论及时 无论在那里 无论多久

你们都会遇见 结局会是幸福的

一个人一辈子一次幸福难不难？

:)

想离开的很遥远 但越渴望越没力气往前走

如果遗失的梦能再找回来 我会勇敢的捉住

我猜测不到我的未来

因为我的命运是零