sunday home

well ~

last night i was watched hong kong drama alone untill midnight 3 o clcok

it was so comfortable and relaxed

after 6 days of work finally saturday night i can relax like a boss

weeee :D

today sleep till afternoon just willing to open my eyes

hehehehe

we should not waste the time to sleep

hahahaa :D

after woke up just then start to clean my room

my room floor is full of hair..

just feel so geli so i decide to clean it up..

now look so clean and comfortable ...

cooked maggie and milo for my brunch

feel so lonely but is okay

just keep telling myself IS OKAY

movie is always the best accompany when you feel nothings to do and alone

it can help you to past time faster..

haha..

recently i just keep thinkin the same things..

keep think how to escape it and run from the problem

but it is too hard for me to escape because all had already comfirm

i admit that i am regret for what i choosed

but before i had told myself even i feel regret at the last i also need to resposible in it

because no people force me

and this decision is i choose myself

even now feel regret i just can keep in heart

my reality still move on...:')

just more hardworking to improve and update myself

hope i can catch up faster and gain more experience

i need to improve my speaking skill

but i also very thx when my from 6 have must speaking lesson

now then i wont so hard to comminicate with others :)

i able speak smoothly but still need to slowly improve to do the best :D

 

last night i was tango with my buddies

i so miss them and very jealous they can chit chat together

but i need to meet them through hp screen only

i very miss the mmment we all play till crazy chat till non stop

it is so memorable

when stay here,sometimes really do wish have a people can chat with me until i fall asleep

at least i know still have a people is keep accompany me

so miss my mummy and my sister

of course my little cut niece too <3 p="">

can time past faster?? i do wish to back malaysia to meet them up..

 

 

last night when went back home

 i walked cross the river side..

i stand at the river side hearing soft music

it was feel so relax

i saw many couple and many happy family was busy taked picture and also dating

but i am alone

i taked picture myself and told myself

it is a way to let me be more stronger

:D

just smile to let all emo things run away

cheers ^^

 

p/s: MY= MISS YOU

 

 



忐忑

有种说不出的感觉
不知道要怎样表达 不知道要怎样诉苦 不知道要怎样发泄
不懂不知道
有时真的很想有个人能成为我肚子里的虫
我不需要说一句话就能明白或知道我想要的是什么
觉得我的人生很迷茫 好像迷失了自己 不懂该选哪条路往前走
能有个人带我走出来吗？
有时候真的很想放弃自己 放弃一切 放弃所有
没有准确的方向真的很烦恼很辛苦
我到底想要的是什么 我到底想待在那里？
一个人在外面生活 好吗？
有时候想念会感觉更寂寞
寂寞了就只能自己安慰自己
想要有个拥抱也只能抱着枕头
要使自己更坚强不是一件容易的事
说当然简单 但这是艰难的
假装的坚强我就厉害 真实的坚强我还遥远的很
我能不能软弱一些些和被保护着
就想像个小女孩的藏在大人的怀抱里
温暖的真实的很有安全感
现在的我 离安全感很遥远 我能跑快一点 与安全感相遇吗？


p/s: smiles are like band-aids.they cover up the pain but it is still hurts...

i am BAcK

สวัสดี

hahaha!

hi my blogger :)

so miss you de nerhhh ~~

i officially at singapore lahh

starting my singapore life

all things was ran smoothly

thx god :D

i working now as beautician :)

my favourite job

hehehe ^6^

hope i able enjoy my work till the end

weeee ^^

singapore life is busy and rushh,they all will not waste any few mints

so i need to get use in it and step more faster to follow up

i living with a malaysian girl :)

she is nice and friendly..

and i also working with malaysians girls

hahaha ^^

i have a malaysians group at singapore

opssss

they all is nice and so friendly

i need stay with them within this year

 

 

leave sandakan already 16 days

at singapore already 10 days

so miss sandakan everythings

and so miss my little cute princess

heard my sister said she become more naughty le

hahaha...

 

at here everythings need to do myself

sometimes really feel lazy nerhhh

but no choices ,need learn to more independent

but sometimes really feel so tired and alone

when miss someone really feel so lonely

just keep tell myself every things will be alright ^^

and 1 years so fast to past

next year chinese new year i will be at sandakan celebrate

stay strong ya soey :D

 

she is my lovely dear

is my good accompany when i at singapore

and thx for help me when i in need

muackssss <3 p="p">

 



end and start

more 2 hours i need leave sandakan 

going to kuala lumpur le..

my mood is so complicated now

should i happy or unhappy?

honestly i really so mm sek dak but truthly is i need to leave

when a people need to get somethings that must give uo somethings

i choose to give up here life alone

going to kl have a graduate trip with my form 6 gang :)

and of course i can meet up my friends who study and work at kl de

due to CNY i no come back here

so i  wish can use this chance to meet up all of them ^^

i must enjoy my days at KL ..

xoxo 

stay at kl around 5 days then going to singapore alone

self taking a 13kg luaggage it is so suffer me

hahaha 

but luckily this time i able manage my things and no over weight =p

start all the things when i reach singapore 

family no around i need more independent

i know i can :)

i believe i can :)

wish all things run smoothly and have a safe flight for myself

[finger cross]

p/s: zai jian le...yi qi ying jie 2014 :D

touching ;'(

what a memory night

you gals really did suprise me and touching me

hate you all make me cried 

thanks you all let me have a amazing 20th birthday 

thanks you all gave me a suprise

the video really so suprise me!!

i dint expect i can get a wish from you all 

1st year chinese new year i dint celebrate with you all

we every year also will go temple gather together 

every year also will pass CNY together

sorry about this year i no availaible

happy to know you all 

you all just lik dai jie jie to take care of me :)

although among you all i am the most yongest

but we just like soh po playing together fun together :D

i do appreciate what you all did for me

i do appreciate you all <3 p="p">

I LOVE YOU ALL !

I MISS YOU ALL !

I DO !

FRIENDSHIP FOREVER !

MY FRIENDS TAKE GOOD CARE