again !! kk trip :D

yeahuuu~~

turn to our gang kk trip

4 days 3 nights kk trip

 miss??

i very miss it..miss all my secondary school life memorise

happy memorise i will remember all the time :)

those sad and unhappy memorise i already forget 

haha

KA ANN WENDY TRACY

u gals are my best ji mui forever and ever..

muacksssss !!!

i am lucky that let me meet up with u all

lets have a forever friendship

memorise :)

hello december ^^ good morning

haha..today suddenly think of my kk trip with my ji mui last time

saw back those old picture 

thinking back all our memorise..

how happy how sweet:D

lets fresh back my secondary graduate day :)

BSMM & BB ^^

my 6 years ji mui <3 p="p">

my another partner at BSMM :D

she is my lovely teacher since i form 3 

really did miss she so much 

teacher ~ i miss you 

photosoot inside toilet..hehe

pro in act?? haha

BSMM naib pengerusi & GB pengerusi ^^

a same day ,v went to tshun ngen have our swat photoshoot 

did make alot fun 

and most important is our camera man CMK ...hahaha

how miss my old look =p

HAPPY :D

white colour is our team colour in that day

photoshoot 1

 saw?? our professional camera man..

haha

能吗？

我能说出来吗?
我能要求吗？
我能表达吗？
我能吗？

有些事不能假装的不知道
但也要假装的不知道
有些事要隐藏
但却隐藏的好辛苦

为什么人就不能表达一切？
是因为环境的影响
而要勉强自己 假装的很好
有时假装的多 也慢慢的开始讨厌自己

笑容可以代替一切 一笑而过
眼泪可以哭诉一切 哗啦撒过
心里的痛 能一夜忘记?

失眠很痛苦 明明很累了 眼睛累了

躺上床上却眼睁睁的

无论试着怎样强逼自己赶快入睡 都没用

有些烦恼 有些痛楚 有些问题

都想借由睡觉带过 不过失败

我已习惯了吗？ 

是否每天都要尝试着失眠的痛苦

我就是睡不着！！！

我只想好好的睡一觉

为什么从以前我就不会得到答案

没有答案的生活

我厌恶了

life

thanks

曲婉婷 



春天, 情不自禁想念
会到哪一天, 不再会去留恋
夏天, 天上掉着雨点
我不再是从前, 
不会因你哭得红了眼
秋天, 花儿谢了一片
我不再会因你而改变
也不再会犹豫说再见
冬天, 很快又是一年
世界不是这个屋檐
没有你的日子更加甜
我感谢你离开了我, 你可知道
没有你我不会这么快的学到
什么是坚强,什么是真爱
人为何要先懂得爱自己再去爱别人
你以为你离开了, 我不会快乐
像电视里的女主角一样难过
我告诉你今天
我过得很快活…

“你走的那天 我哭了
不知道什么时候 能够停止这种感觉
一年以后的今天 我笑了
感谢你当初离开了我
没有了你的日子 我过得更快活”
每一天, 我都可以实现
所谓的事你曾说我做不到
我终于明白什么事都不依靠…
我感谢你离开了我, 你可知道
没有你我不会这么快的学到
什么是坚强,什么是真爱
人为何要先懂得爱自己再去爱别人
你以为你离开了, 我不会快乐
像电视里的女主角一样难过
我告诉你今天
我过得很快活…
我感谢你离开了我, 你可知道
没有你我不会这么快的学到
什么是坚强,什么是真爱
人为何要先懂得爱自己再去爱别人
你以为你离开了, 我不会快乐
像电视里的女主角一样难过
我告诉你今天
我过得很快活…

bye by3 hello

bye bye bye bye bye

NOVEMBER

hello hello hello hello

DECEMBER

let us welcome DECEMBER together :D

a last month in year 2012

a last month let us to done our things in 2012

and get ready welcome a new year ^^

dunno why i just hope what i have at 2012 just stay it there

i want a brand new year 2013 

depends

last night 

i seriously very emotional

i just feel that my heart is nt belong to me

it just don hear what i said ,i just cant control my heart perfectly

what happened har??

this few days i damn emo of keep thinking those nonsense

why ahh?.

i also feel myself so stupid like to make trouble out

ishhhh !!!

maybe i just believe what i feel 

i just can feel out what will happen soon

what i worry what i scare really will come true

am i a god? weird?

lastly thanks for my dear advices

what she told me really did wake me up

what she told me really correct

i just keep follow people step to move but never think of myself

i just very care how a people treat me but never think of it good or bad

i don want let a people bring me walk 

i need walk alone 

i cant depends on other more i need is independent

it just a little things can make i lost myself 

i just want to give a big stupid clap to myself

keep tell myself cant get use in everythings

because this might be changes in 1 second 1 minute 1 days 

things will not last forever 

i need to face it by myself with a stronger mood 

can i??

i just realise more 9 days is my birthday

20 years old??

20 years old bring me many problem

november have many friends birthday

saw they post their happy picture on facebook 

feel them so happy and enjoy :)

happy to see it :)

more 34 days i can leave here ^^

i can have my new life without sandakan

hope 2013 will be nice to me 

just correct all my luck and use it on 2013

finger cross 

my MONEY

MAYBANK?

once again! when i fully trust a things at last make me dissapointed again

i just don know where my money goes??

there is no small amount :'(

bank also cant trust? then i really dunno where should i put my money ...

i cant stop scarring i cant stop worrying i cant stop thinking

keep find excuse to myself said that is a problem on my account

after tomorrow have a check then will nothings

my money will come back to me

that all is my saving money

please please please give back to me..

FINGER CROSS

really hope tomorrow all things will be fine...:'(

WORRY MAX !! :'(

哀求

昨晚七点就睡了

感觉很疲惫 很困

连续发了不同的梦 但我都不记得了

唯有记得就只是我苦苦的哀求别丢下我

我哀求谁我不知道 只觉得这场面很熟悉 觉得好像发生过

哀求 在我身上发生了无数次

不是别人哀求我 而是我哀求别人

被人抛弃了 但却苦苦的哀求别扔下我 心痛的碎了 也要硬着自己

我永远都是输的一方 只有配角适合我

我也认命了

从以前我就不懂得拒绝

身边的朋友都说我笨

我只希望只要我能够帮忙的我都会尽能力的帮

帮了到最后自己受委屈

那就只好自己偷偷的哭 哭过就好了 

或许我也习惯了 有事就记得我 无事我的名字就不存在了

这也让我想起了他

从以前的我就一直在帮他 不曾拒绝 傻吗？

这也是我自愿的 所以我没埋怨

有一个很傻的理念 就只想我身边的朋友开心 :)

只要在我能力之中 

这样我自己也开心也享受 :D

但我的开心是短暂的 我的幸福是短暂的

这也让我渐渐习惯了这一切

不敢希望 不敢期待 不敢预测 

因为我害怕  害怕 失望的感觉

p/s: 创造自己的开心 只是假象 过了就没了 

breaking dawn

awwww!!

finally breaking dawn part 2 on showing !!

cant wait to watch it 

but too bad is i sitting my stpm exam

aiksssss

i plan to watch it on my birthday as my birthday present to myself 

watch my lovely movie is a best birthday present..

hahahahaa !!

but can i wait it?

hmmmmm....so hard bahhh   oppsss

fast ahh fast ahhhh~~~

BREAKING DAWN 

happy ending :)

I LIKE HAPPY ENDING SO MUCH

will i have a happy ending too?

haha <3 p="p">

recently i watched 2 taiwan drama 

also have a happy ending :D

i can feel out how happy am i and also will smile out

and 1 singapore drama..yeahuuu~~

what i hope it really come true!!

after finished watched it,that night i can sleep sweetly ..hahaha

am i crazy? that just a drama 

but i really happy with it ..hehe ^^

a drama that have happy ending can let me feel happiness so i super love it 

awwww~~ !!

those drama make me off to study mood but enjoying the happiness..

hahahahaa

this few days i keep thinking a same question

a question that i unable to solve it

but i just not dare to put a hope in it anymore

just let all the things go smoothly and dint have anythings hurt me 

[finger cross]

okay~ finally i passed 3 paper for my stpm

now waiting next week come to sit for 3 paper again

so fast stpm has end 

haha..

but still need endure 2 more weeks so i cant so fast on my holidays mood first

so now is time to study lahh...

gogogo

p/s: take care yourself and take more rest .[ gei dek yam duo2 sui ahh :)]

why so serious :'(

today today and today

sejarah sejarah and sejarah

the paper that i put more hope on it 

the paper that i put more effort on it

the paper that i more stress on it

at last ?? 

last night i was keep memorise all the note and i don even want to skip anythings

study until 2 o clock wait up 6 o clcok refresh back again

even sleep  i also keep memorise all the point 

totally cant sleep well 

all the forcus all the hardworking just because i hope i able answer all question

i careless to skip  one question that i no answer but i had readed it :'(

i am so regret damn regret :'(:'(:'(

i lost 25 marks :'(

for the chapter that i aim no come out

start to what ??

blow water blow untill i fall assleep

why ? why there is no any luck on me :'(

i fall tears in front my mummy when my mummy asked me how about today

i though i am ok but i just cant control my tears

feel so depress right now ;'(

keep telling myself nevermind nevermind it oledi over

but my mood just cant listening to me

i wish to find somethings cheers me up

i wish to lost all the memory right now so that i wont remember what happened today :'(

ahhhhhhhhhh !!!

p/s : sad tears of a day  :'(

 

stpm?

today is friday

2 more days i gonna sit for my exam STPM

omg ! stress max !

really scare i unable memorise all the note all the point

can i write the right answer on the exam paper?

can i answer the paper ?

will i sit there 3 hours for doing nothings?

really scare will happen on me 

next week exam subject PA,PP1 and SEJARAH 1

the most make me nervous is sejarah

i keep scaring until that day i cant remember all the note

now even  sleep i also feel so stress keep memorise all point

haizzz ~~

really wish faster past stpm and have my holidays

really is the first time feel so nervous

god bless me 

[finger crossing]

p/s: please let my heart steady 

问号 ?

朋友

感情

恋人

爱情

难道就不能又是爱情又是朋友吗？

男朋友就只能是男朋友？

能不能当男朋友也当好朋友呢？

哈哈

也蛮特别的 :D

每个人都会有过一段不开心伤痛的感情

但总会过去总会雨过天晴的 :)

但这些痛都会隐藏在内心里

不触碰当然没事

要触碰了，心痛的感觉又会回来了

电视剧里的爱情

一个人一直不停地伤害你，但永远都有另一个人默默的保护着你

这就是电影爱情？

哈哈

或许吧~ 现实的生活也只能有现实的爱情

不过我也有少少期待着

哈哈哈 =P

一段感情能不能维持的长久都是靠彼此的联系

单方面是没有可能守护着一段感情

只有笑没有哭的爱情 有吗？

或许有吧 因为这世界什么事都有可能的

p/s: 不能实现的诺言 为什么要说出口 既然谁出口了 为什么不继续的骗下去

a minute

a minute that i feel dissapointed 

upset

it just like somethings that i already prepare already plan 

but at last just like begging people to join

maybe it too suddenly?

mayb2 it too rush?

maybe it not the right time?

but i just wish we all can enjoy

nevermind, maybe for me it is important 

but for others is not the same idea

different people different mind different attitude

p/s: maybe maybe maybe i can let it

i want to buy this so much lahh ~~

it very fong bin and save time

really LIKE it much much

awww~~

but due to some problem i unable buy this
;(

need wait after exam just manage to buy this 

really wish to have it as fast as possible

but cant :(

be patient to wait for after exam then online buy it home 

hehe

be patient ya soey ^^

boring times boring WEEK

boring de nerhhh ~~
study ? study ? study ?
i am going crazy :(
7 days to go 

can fast abit mahh??

i really cant stand for it anymore 

i want holidays ahhh !!!

i don want my table full of many books 

i don want everyday wake up also thinking of revision

i don want every night also think tomorrow wake up study what subject

haizzzz~~

when the goverment change new rules?

student no need take examination

HAHAHAHAAHA!

i really wish it will happen one day

MAKEUP?

MAKEUP?

makeup can change one people

a simple makeup can make a people look different from outside

but inside was still the same

once you remove all you makeup ,you will be back to original 

2 weeks

2 weeks more i gonna sit for my STPM

stress?

hmmm...is okay..

i just try my best to do well on my paper 

am i wish to get a place in university?

honestly,only 40 % that i wish to get in university

is 4 years to study university and the subject that i study not must what i want

i enough to study a subject that i really not interested

i feel is wasting my time

i want to stay at singapore to do the things that i like and i really interested in it

begining i kow it is hard and toiful but it is the way i choose for my future

i wont blame on anyone and i just will try my best to move towards for my future

you asked me stay at sandakan to find a job 

really sorry,i am stronger reject you..

i wont stay at sandakan to move on for my future..sorry

you want me go where also can but sorry no sandakan.

here got many reason many things many people that make me don even want to stay here 

except my mum

if i able to bring my mum to leave here,i will do

we cant predict our future but we can plan our future

sucess or not sucess just depends how you decide it

p/s: my future is on my hand 

STPM?

finally i start my revision yesterday..

i study PP1 2 hours at last end up of sleep

eyes feel so tired and cant continue study

so i rather choose go bed have a rest

hehe..

i had plan for my revision timetable and i must force myself to follow it

no reason no excuse please ~

fight for STPM 

month november

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU chin min ket :)

i success gave you suprise :D 

today is 2th november 2012

just a 2nd day for november,but i already feel so deepressed

when i saw somethings and know somethings

i really dunno how to settle down or control my mood

i tried to sleep to avoid all the things

but i failed :'(

i able use what way to express my emotion

i unable write out what happened at here

because here is incovenient to write out

you and me stay at different place 

i at sandakan you at another side...

can just we life for our own life and don disturb each other

 i really be dissapointed toward you

how much i believe on you but at last you treat me as this way

nevermind... that is your mouth and i cant stop what you want to said

mayb you just too free or nothings to say

well~~ enought to disturb me !

p/s:i seriously in it

weeeeee ^^ i am graduate form 6 

end my one and half year form 6 life

it build up many memories with all my form 6 friends and also my best buddies :)

will miss my best buddies and teacher very much :)

thx u all for gave me a amazing form 6 life 

i wont forget all about it ^^

xoxo

p/s: it wonderful to have all of you 

pre-U prom night party

oh yeah ^^

here the picture :)

yesterday was our school st mary PRE-U prom night party

nothings can said but i enjoyed so much :D

yesterday night was had many beautiful girls and charming boys

a thing that must did sure is take picture with leng lui leng zai..

hahahaha^^

all the performance was amazing 

and also our class performance was runed smoothly and success :)

our class teacher pn chung was so happy on that night

never see she will smile that sweetly :)  like it

around 10 o clock all the performance had end

for sure we comfirm had second round..haha

we went to best brew to had our fun night 

what a awesome night with all my friends ^^

the amazing life band plus 2 beautiful sing girls

wow !!

we all dance like no tomorrow even go up the stage

all had their fun dance around OPPA SABAH STYLE 

hahahaa !!

all dance until tired and sweat alot but all had enjoyed so much ^^

around 12 ,all was nack home and our gang was went to third round to had supper

haha..really hungry ~

before went back home,was something bad happened 

it really shock me but really thx god my friends was nothings and okay now :)

reached home around 2.30 midnight..a lazy things i need to did was washed my hair 

and removed my makeup

i was really feel crazy to wash my hair 

it take me around half hour to washed it..ishhh !!

went to bed around 3.30 o clock 

then sleep like a pig..^^