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我回来啦！

很久不见！

最近时间都变成了睡觉 大部分时间都是在睡觉

除了睡觉还是睡觉

一个人在外面生活 有好也有坏

好的是自由 自由的到你想要到的地方

坏的是很累 很累 

你不动就没有人帮助你 想懒惰一下下就饿着肚子

不简单 到现在的我还不能好好的适应

之前的我还以为来到了陌生的大城市里

我的新生活开始 

但真的蛮累的 这并不简单 一个人在外面生活 不只是需要勇气 还需要坚持

想念更难熬 

每天都在倒数着时间 时间无时无刻的在东但我却觉得好漫长 

很想回到妈妈的怀抱里 

坚持久了都觉的快要生病了 精疲力尽

好想回到我从小长大的家乡 我最熟悉的地方

independent life

hello bloger..

long time no visit u le

recently keep busy to settle down all the things

seriously i so tired..

trying to be more independent really so tired

anythings also need to settle by myself

sometimes i really do wish have people give me some idea or rent me a pair of ear

from the day i came here,i never stop to think about my job

a trainee is it must pass all this things

after that will be good?

i really do hope so..

living independent is no that easy as what people say

sometimes i do wish escape all the things and go back malaysia..

can i have a good luck?

can i settle all things down?

can i enjoy my life here??

please

 



HAPPY VALENTINES

 

okay..

for me today is only thursday "haha"

valentines ?what is that?

early morning i receive a valentines present

suprise ~

the present is

GIVE UP

what a good present rite :)

i already try my full best,at last also no ending

just let it be..

if force to have somethings it also meaningless

i already try so i wont regret

2nd times le...is time for me to rest now

being hurt feeling so suckss

so tired

hope this all things will let me grow more mature

and more strong

from now on,my dictionary no promise this word

totally delete !

no sucks word appear in my life again..

I WONT BELIEVE ANYMORE !

 

continue enjoy my singal day

FOREVER ALONE

but i like it :D

at least wont hurt by others and feel the worse feeling

 

enjoy my last holidays ~~

wohooo !

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

early morning receives a valentines day present

suprise ~~

the present is

GIVE UP



boring,alone chinese new year

can someone talk to me??

can someone accompany me??

can someone care of me??

2013 chinese new year is the most boring to me

cause i just stay home stay home and stay home

movie movie movie and also movie

what a boring holidays to me :(

really so boring ahhhhh !!!!!

staying outside alone not a easy things

last night went out pub to have a drinks

untill morning then i just slept

today stay home whole day and oing nothings again

how about tomorrow? how about thursday?

i really dunno how to pass it

thursday is valentine days

sorry,i already forgot what meaning of valentines day

for me it just like normal only :' (

nothings important for me..

can i run away from now?

i don want to stay at a hell life...

i will crazy ahhhh!!!!

welcome febRuary

hello febRuary :D
i officially at singapore 22 days
leave malaysia already 28 days
happy? enjoy?
hmmm,i dunno how to answer
cause of my work problem
i kep cant settle it but......
just take time slowly to think about it and try to no regret again
everyday repeat the same things
walk work walk back
this call working life?
i had really feel it
i understand why those people will say go school better than work
now i really can feel it and understand
now i rather choose go back my school life except exam lahh...hehehe =p
although exam is so tired but work more tired plus stress
haizzzz~~


god bless me i can have another way let me move on
please~~


my colleagua everyday is happing that chinese new year can back their own hometown
busying buy new cloth
me?? this year no chinese new year for me
chinese new year is around the corner but that is not important for me
i think i will eat alone walk alone and shooping alone to pass my chinese new year
because all my friends is not at singapore
haizzzzz...
i miss my family and all my friends
meet them up and gather together is how fun and enjoy
but... is okay :')

p/s: seriously i miss you so much..

 

and hor i want to dye my hair lahhh

i cant wait already

when can i dye my hair and cut my hair??

my front hair is damn long and so weird

red purple colour!! wait me !!

sunday home

well ~

last night i was watched hong kong drama alone untill midnight 3 o clcok

it was so comfortable and relaxed

after 6 days of work finally saturday night i can relax like a boss

weeee :D

today sleep till afternoon just willing to open my eyes

hehehehe

we should not waste the time to sleep

hahahaa :D

after woke up just then start to clean my room

my room floor is full of hair..

just feel so geli so i decide to clean it up..

now look so clean and comfortable ...

cooked maggie and milo for my brunch

feel so lonely but is okay

just keep telling myself IS OKAY

movie is always the best accompany when you feel nothings to do and alone

it can help you to past time faster..

haha..

recently i just keep thinkin the same things..

keep think how to escape it and run from the problem

but it is too hard for me to escape because all had already comfirm

i admit that i am regret for what i choosed

but before i had told myself even i feel regret at the last i also need to resposible in it

because no people force me

and this decision is i choose myself

even now feel regret i just can keep in heart

my reality still move on...:')

just more hardworking to improve and update myself

hope i can catch up faster and gain more experience

i need to improve my speaking skill

but i also very thx when my from 6 have must speaking lesson

now then i wont so hard to comminicate with others :)

i able speak smoothly but still need to slowly improve to do the best :D

 

last night i was tango with my buddies

i so miss them and very jealous they can chit chat together

but i need to meet them through hp screen only

i very miss the mmment we all play till crazy chat till non stop

it is so memorable

when stay here,sometimes really do wish have a people can chat with me until i fall asleep

at least i know still have a people is keep accompany me

so miss my mummy and my sister

of course my little cut niece too <3 p="">

can time past faster?? i do wish to back malaysia to meet them up..

 

 

last night when went back home

 i walked cross the river side..

i stand at the river side hearing soft music

it was feel so relax

i saw many couple and many happy family was busy taked picture and also dating

but i am alone

i taked picture myself and told myself

it is a way to let me be more stronger

:D

just smile to let all emo things run away

cheers ^^

 

p/s: MY= MISS YOU

 

 



忐忑

有种说不出的感觉
不知道要怎样表达 不知道要怎样诉苦 不知道要怎样发泄
不懂不知道
有时真的很想有个人能成为我肚子里的虫
我不需要说一句话就能明白或知道我想要的是什么
觉得我的人生很迷茫 好像迷失了自己 不懂该选哪条路往前走
能有个人带我走出来吗？
有时候真的很想放弃自己 放弃一切 放弃所有
没有准确的方向真的很烦恼很辛苦
我到底想要的是什么 我到底想待在那里？
一个人在外面生活 好吗？
有时候想念会感觉更寂寞
寂寞了就只能自己安慰自己
想要有个拥抱也只能抱着枕头
要使自己更坚强不是一件容易的事
说当然简单 但这是艰难的
假装的坚强我就厉害 真实的坚强我还遥远的很
我能不能软弱一些些和被保护着
就想像个小女孩的藏在大人的怀抱里
温暖的真实的很有安全感
现在的我 离安全感很遥远 我能跑快一点 与安全感相遇吗？


p/s: smiles are like band-aids.they cover up the pain but it is still hurts...