哀求

昨晚七点就睡了

感觉很疲惫 很困

连续发了不同的梦 但我都不记得了

唯有记得就只是我苦苦的哀求别丢下我

我哀求谁我不知道 只觉得这场面很熟悉 觉得好像发生过

哀求 在我身上发生了无数次

不是别人哀求我 而是我哀求别人

被人抛弃了 但却苦苦的哀求别扔下我 心痛的碎了 也要硬着自己

我永远都是输的一方 只有配角适合我

我也认命了

从以前我就不懂得拒绝

身边的朋友都说我笨

我只希望只要我能够帮忙的我都会尽能力的帮

帮了到最后自己受委屈

那就只好自己偷偷的哭 哭过就好了 

或许我也习惯了 有事就记得我 无事我的名字就不存在了

这也让我想起了他

从以前的我就一直在帮他 不曾拒绝 傻吗？

这也是我自愿的 所以我没埋怨

有一个很傻的理念 就只想我身边的朋友开心 :)

只要在我能力之中 

这样我自己也开心也享受 :D

但我的开心是短暂的 我的幸福是短暂的

这也让我渐渐习惯了这一切

不敢希望 不敢期待 不敢预测 

因为我害怕  害怕 失望的感觉

p/s: 创造自己的开心 只是假象 过了就没了 

breaking dawn

awwww!!

finally breaking dawn part 2 on showing !!

cant wait to watch it 

but too bad is i sitting my stpm exam

aiksssss

i plan to watch it on my birthday as my birthday present to myself 

watch my lovely movie is a best birthday present..

hahahahaa !!

but can i wait it?

hmmmmm....so hard bahhh   oppsss

fast ahh fast ahhhh~~~

BREAKING DAWN 

happy ending :)

I LIKE HAPPY ENDING SO MUCH

will i have a happy ending too?

haha <3 p="p">

recently i watched 2 taiwan drama 

also have a happy ending :D

i can feel out how happy am i and also will smile out

and 1 singapore drama..yeahuuu~~

what i hope it really come true!!

after finished watched it,that night i can sleep sweetly ..hahaha

am i crazy? that just a drama 

but i really happy with it ..hehe ^^

a drama that have happy ending can let me feel happiness so i super love it 

awwww~~ !!

those drama make me off to study mood but enjoying the happiness..

hahahahaa

this few days i keep thinking a same question

a question that i unable to solve it

but i just not dare to put a hope in it anymore

just let all the things go smoothly and dint have anythings hurt me 

[finger cross]

okay~ finally i passed 3 paper for my stpm

now waiting next week come to sit for 3 paper again

so fast stpm has end 

haha..

but still need endure 2 more weeks so i cant so fast on my holidays mood first

so now is time to study lahh...

gogogo

p/s: take care yourself and take more rest .[ gei dek yam duo2 sui ahh :)]

why so serious :'(

today today and today

sejarah sejarah and sejarah

the paper that i put more hope on it 

the paper that i put more effort on it

the paper that i more stress on it

at last ?? 

last night i was keep memorise all the note and i don even want to skip anythings

study until 2 o clock wait up 6 o clcok refresh back again

even sleep  i also keep memorise all the point 

totally cant sleep well 

all the forcus all the hardworking just because i hope i able answer all question

i careless to skip  one question that i no answer but i had readed it :'(

i am so regret damn regret :'(:'(:'(

i lost 25 marks :'(

for the chapter that i aim no come out

start to what ??

blow water blow untill i fall assleep

why ? why there is no any luck on me :'(

i fall tears in front my mummy when my mummy asked me how about today

i though i am ok but i just cant control my tears

feel so depress right now ;'(

keep telling myself nevermind nevermind it oledi over

but my mood just cant listening to me

i wish to find somethings cheers me up

i wish to lost all the memory right now so that i wont remember what happened today :'(

ahhhhhhhhhh !!!

p/s : sad tears of a day  :'(

 

stpm?

today is friday

2 more days i gonna sit for my exam STPM

omg ! stress max !

really scare i unable memorise all the note all the point

can i write the right answer on the exam paper?

can i answer the paper ?

will i sit there 3 hours for doing nothings?

really scare will happen on me 

next week exam subject PA,PP1 and SEJARAH 1

the most make me nervous is sejarah

i keep scaring until that day i cant remember all the note

now even  sleep i also feel so stress keep memorise all point

haizzz ~~

really wish faster past stpm and have my holidays

really is the first time feel so nervous

god bless me 

[finger crossing]

p/s: please let my heart steady 

问号 ?

朋友

感情

恋人

爱情

难道就不能又是爱情又是朋友吗？

男朋友就只能是男朋友？

能不能当男朋友也当好朋友呢？

哈哈

也蛮特别的 :D

每个人都会有过一段不开心伤痛的感情

但总会过去总会雨过天晴的 :)

但这些痛都会隐藏在内心里

不触碰当然没事

要触碰了，心痛的感觉又会回来了

电视剧里的爱情

一个人一直不停地伤害你，但永远都有另一个人默默的保护着你

这就是电影爱情？

哈哈

或许吧~ 现实的生活也只能有现实的爱情

不过我也有少少期待着

哈哈哈 =P

一段感情能不能维持的长久都是靠彼此的联系

单方面是没有可能守护着一段感情

只有笑没有哭的爱情 有吗？

或许有吧 因为这世界什么事都有可能的

p/s: 不能实现的诺言 为什么要说出口 既然谁出口了 为什么不继续的骗下去

a minute

a minute that i feel dissapointed 

upset

it just like somethings that i already prepare already plan 

but at last just like begging people to join

maybe it too suddenly?

mayb2 it too rush?

maybe it not the right time?

but i just wish we all can enjoy

nevermind, maybe for me it is important 

but for others is not the same idea

different people different mind different attitude

p/s: maybe maybe maybe i can let it