Tuesday, October 9, 2012

pass tense

today afternoon raining heavily again
think back the time when i at singapore
how amazing that i stand under a heavy rain cried for whole night
cried until rain stop i still standing there
nobody will know you are crying when you stand under raining
when i remember that momment ,my heart still will feel pain even heartache
now i realise that,even i forget about it but once i touch it ,still the same no matter how i escape it
being alone not a scary things but being hurt is the most scary things
i just wish i can forget all my memories 
just save those happy memories 
tired on somethings that i keep to escape until now
tired in somethings that i keep act until now
but life still go on
just keep telling myself it will be alright
smile to treat every single days
:D :)

Monday, October 8, 2012

give up

give up 
give up
give up 
give up

really tired to think about it already
just give up on it and stay at singapore 
i know i sure will emo on that time
but is okay bahhh
still got many chance that i can gather with my friends 
still got many times chinese new year :)
cheers soey ^^
thinking to go travel to cheers my emo
haha
planning but dunno it work or not
depends bah 
i think i can pass it even though i am staying at singapore alone and far away from my family and friends
stay stronger !!


well ~~ here the relax timing 
went to 4 point to had a hoaegaarden with my friends
plus live band 
what a enjoyable nights 
love the feel there 

hoagaarden ! my favourite <3 p="p">

Thursday, October 4, 2012


stress ahhh

should back or don back leh?
all my buddies and big family is back sandakan celebrate chinese new year
and my brother mayb back also..
me?
the problem is i january just go to singapore 
then february back again?
air ticket sibeh expensive lehhh...==
hmmmmm...i should think it cleary and decide it as fast as possible
stay at singapore pass chinese new year is okay 
but i sure will emo 
cause really is 1st time i no stay at my home pass chinese new year
no ang pao :(
no lion dance:(
hmmmm.....think again think again....

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

miss?

missing someone right now
who? who? who?
my heart is calling your name
can i tell you that i miss you ?
i really wish that i can loudly tell you 
i think sometimes hide is a good way to protect myself
but it is enough tired 
waiting to end 2012 
i believe tat 2013 will be a brand new year for me to start everything new :D
move or don move?
i cant predict that
now i choose to don care don see don heard and DON KNOW
don want to know then no nid to think
i think i feel so comfortable with this way
"YOu" do take care yourself'

p/s: anythings happened just smile :) 

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

october

welcome october ^^
hello :D
time really pass so fast and i like it :)
2 more month i can leave sandakan soon 
1 more month i gonna sit for my STPM 
afraid? stress? 
i don think i have ..haha opssss 
when i chat with my sis just now , finally i know what to do
singapore life is i really wish to have last forever and don wish to come back malaysia
finally i get my mum permission that i not must in university to study 4 years
but my sis was no really agree with it
she told me that last time i force you to study form 6 is because i wish you can get in university and graduation as university student
she said i can study at singapore but i cant give up on STPM
i should try my best to get a better result
if at last i also cant get in that is never mind because i did try my best to hold on the chance
if i don have try straight give up ,she will feel very dissapointed on me
what my sister told me is truth
i never try never move but give up
i don want to stay at here because of many reason ,those reason really make me cant breathe out
so i decide to leave here 
but i know i cant too selfish only think of myself and avoid my family feeling
they are my family forever family
only family will last forever with me 
i will hold on my promise and work it :)

p/s: no matter where are you, i just wish to be with you.

下一站 幸福 ?

从看了“下一站幸福”这台湾剧
想念里面的剧情 
沉迷在台湾剧 因为里面的故事都是我时常幻想想拥有的
好笑吧? 我自己清楚明白只能幻想 但我也愿意
或许我相信着
深爱着一个人 可以为对方牺牲一切包括离开
爱情就像玩大富翁 有机会和命运
机会可以让你开心或忧愁 命运可让你改变一切
而我也许只能抽机会 因为我的命运是零
我能到那一站? 我的那一站是幸福的?
有些时候 我的脚步不想踏前一步
是因为我身后有着我的不舍得
我的梦里 我的心里 我的歌声里
都存在着你
如果你们是属于对方的 无论及时 无论在那里 无论多久
你们都会遇见 结局会是幸福的
一个人一辈子一次幸福难不难?
:)
想离开的很遥远 但越渴望越没力气往前走
如果遗失的梦能再找回来 我会勇敢的捉住
我猜测不到我的未来
因为我的命运是零